We’ve officially been home a week from our two-week ‘spring break’ in sunny Florida. Funny how fast time passes when you’re surrounded by love, and leisure, and good weather. A little more than two weeks passed in what seemed like less time than this past week.
This trip left me feeling so complete. But so torn. I never wanted to move back to Florida, never had the desire to be amongst the congestion and hustle that comes with a tropical melting pot. However, seeing my girl so very happy everyday like I haven’t seen before had me questioning our decision to be so far away from our families. This coupled with the hardships that come along with aging family members and watching my parents try to balance the care of my grandparents and their own busy lives. I’d be lying if I didn’t want to move down there anymore. As with everything, there are pros and cons. And as with every-time we drive home from the airport my husband and I went over that list again and made it seem like we were indeed making the right decisions in life. It doesn’t make it any easier.
You probably know by now, my philosophy in life. It is what you make it. It’s about the decisions you make and what you choose. I choose joy, and love, and to surround myself with positivity. So I can’t sit here and wallow in the what-ifs and I-wishes. I just have to remind myself how lucky we are to have the opportunities we have and soak up the love while we can. It makes all of our time together even more special and exciting because it’s something we don’t take for granted.
We don’t get used to the beauty of the south, or the shuffle of my grandpa’s feet. The reminiscent smell of mom’s candles and the early morning noises of dad getting his coffee before work. The giggles of my niece and the proud smiles from my brother. The sadness I see in my mom’s eyes when she realizes there are only a couple days left of our time together–its hurts the same every time. But it makes me feel so lucky. Because she misses us, they all do. Because we are so lucky in love.
We had a great visit, and I can’t wait to go back. But until then I’m happy to be home <3